In the early morning hours while it was still dark I had a lot of thought about my day ahead. Thought about how unpredictable the day may prove to be and how or what of the day I could control. Which as it turns out isn’t much. In respect to events that happen anyway.
Today I will.
When I wake in the morning and my feet hit the floor much of the day ahead is unknown. All the day will bring is yet to be seen. Even though a lot of what I’m doing seems to be filled with the same stuff. Work. Home. Dinner. Bed. Repeat.
The activities that fill the time between rising and resting tend to be similar in nature. Especially as of late. It’s almost like I’m living Groundhog Day. Every day. Except for all the repeat of my “normal” life. This new normal is difficult.
Just about the time I feel relaxed something comes up. Something happens. Reality of my work and surroundings sinks in a little deeper. Becomes a little more real. Or strikes a new very personal level. I feel a pause in the beat of my heart. Then I get up and push through.
The only certainty of the day is, Today I Will.
Today I will. Make a lot of choices that I pray are the right decisions. I don’t know if they are. I hope, pray, and wish. But the truth is, I don’t know. So I’ve asked God to be my counsel. Psalms 73:24 Thou shalt guide me with thy counsel, and afterward receive me to they glory.
Today I will. Cry a little or maybe a lot depending on what the day brings. Those tears might come from sadness or grief. So I’ve asked God to be my comfort. 2 Corinthians 1:4 He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When they are troubled we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us.
Today I will. Feel a little worry in my heart when something gets thrown at me I either didn’t expect or was secretly hoping just wouldn’t. I hope the impending trouble doesn’t find me but sometimes it does. So, I’ve asked God to be my ever present help in a time of trouble. Psalms 73:26 My flesh and my heart faileth: but God is the strength of my heart, and my portion forever.
Today I will. Feel sad about all that I’m preparing for and praying doesn’t come. So, I’ve asked God to be my joy. Psalms 34:8 Taste and see that the Lord is good. Oh, the joys of those who take refuge in him!
Today I will. Get frustrated or irritated by something or someone because that’s life and it’s especially true when emotions are high already. So, I’ve asked God to be my source of love and compassion. Psalms 86:15 But you, O Lord, are a God of compassion and mercy, slow to get angry and filled with unfailing love and faithfulness.
Today I will. Experience the stress of the day as life unfolds before me. So, I’ve asked God to be my peace. John 14:27 I am leaving you with a gift – peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid.
Today I will. The what I walk through in life isn’t what I can choose. It’s the how. So, today, I will choose how. Psalms 23:3 He renews my strength. He guides me along right paths, bringing honor to his name.
Today I will. Most importantly, today, I will choose. Choose faith. Choose love. Choose praise. Choose worship. Choose to experience the day with God as my source for all my needs.
Friend, a lot of life isn’t what you have control over. A lot of what you face on the journey often isn’t within your control. For many different reasons. Reasons we can’t explain. But through it all, and through today, you have a God that is able and ready to be all you need him to be. Today, choose to lean on him for the experiences of the day instead of yourself.
Today, I will. Choose Christ.
Bobbie