In the middle of despair, Job desired to state his case with God as he suffered tremendous loss and peered down the lens of seemingly the end.
He said, my eyes are swollen with weeping and I am but a shadow of my former self (Job 17:7).
God seemed so far away from where he lay.
Have you ever felt like that? Like the land where you lay is barren, dry, cracked, and so far away from God. In moments of despair, when your eyes are swollen with weeping and you feel but a mere shadow of your former self, that reaching God is unattainable.
I have.
I have wondered if he sees me. Does he even remember that I exist? Is there something I’ve done to deserve this sufffering? The depth of grief in my heart is indescribable as I wonder why I must continue to breathe. I’m hopeless and desperate. Numb. Empty. Drained. Existing. Nothing more. Nothing less. Without purpose.
The beauty of the presence of the Lord, is that even in my most desperate moments, I can muster a whisper of his sweet name, and usher him in. Right where I lay.
When he took his last breath on the cross, releasing His Spirit, the veil tore, and His Presence became accessible to me.
The idea that God is held up in a far off place where you cannot reach him as your refuge, is false. He is, according to my Bible, our help in troubled times with an immediacy of response. (Psalm 46) He is your shelter, strong tower, and refuge. In his shadow, you find rest.
Whisper his sweet name, my friend, until you feel the warmth of his precious presence. Rest in him today. ❤️
